Election 2016

Today is a sad day for me. I spent last night watching the election with my husband and when we went to bed at 10pm, I still had hope that Hillary would win. But alas, at 3am when I got up to use the restroom, I found out that I was wrong….indeed we were all wrong. The shock kept me awake and worry/fear soon followed. I honestly don’t know how to express all the emotions I have felt in the last day but I know this: I am nervous about bringing a child into this world. I am scared about the repercussion of nationalism, the future repercussion of turning a blind eye to global warming, and the wall we will build to both isolate and doom ourselves.


I want my daughter to know that there are still good people in this world and that hopefully she will be amongst them. I want her to trust the democratic process and to appreciate her birthright: freedom, gender equality, diversity, and justice. However, today for the first time, I am not sure this will be her inheritance. I am deeply sad.

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