Shooting for the Moon

I wrote last week about how I was contemplating medication to control my anxiety and after much debate (mostly internal), I have decided to try my next rotation without meds. This was not easy for me because I’m scared I’ll feel miserable again but I think part of me knows it is just how third year goes and looking back, I’ve been through much worse. I think I just need to a) start getting up an hour before work so I can study (and feel better about myself) before the day starts and b) stop studying 30 min before bed. With that said, I am determined to live by the following advice from a friend for the next 2 month:


In other news, this is my last week of my research elective and I am glad to have caught some of the transition from summer into fall. We celebrated the moon festival with game night and I celebrated having weekends by squeezing as much fun in as possible. I have one weekend left and I’m planning on hiking,  date night, and maybe a movie. I’m super excited!

Ever heard of this game? It is super fun and kindof like monopoly

These were my special treat in college!

My dad took this photo!



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