Dear Caila - 3 months

Dear Caila,

You are officially 3 month old today! I can’t believe how much you have changed in just 3 short months. Yes, you are still fussy at times (mostly due to gas) but when you are well-rested, you are so happy! You love bouncing in your bouncer and talking to your stuff animals. Though you haven’t quite figured out rolling over or grasping yet, you are trying.

Because I want to be honest here, I have to admit the following:

1.     I don’t do as much tummy time with you as I probably should. You don’t like it too much and there is such a small window between each feed (every 2 hrs) that sometime I just want to keep you happy

2.     Sometime I mourn for my previous life. I LOVE you SOOO much but I guess only now am I realizing that I can’t just go out or do whatever I want anymore. Things like going to Target or even driving 10min to Costco takes planning. We try to leave when you are well-fed and well-burped and I always worry that I forgot something for you.  I think most new moms feels this at some point but in no way does it subtract from how blessed I feel to have you in my life.

3.     Gosh some nights are hard. You have good nights where you are asleep by 8 and up at 1am, then 4 or 5am before you wake up for the day around 7am. But, during growth spurt/leaps/bad nights where you have a lot of gas, you are up every 2 hours. I know it is part of the job but some nights are just hard. Good thing you are cute.

Anyways, motherhood is such a humbling experience; one full of dichotomies and both foreseeable and unforeseeable changes. I can’t believe we are 3 month in already but I am excited (and nervous) to see what the next 3 month will bring.

Love,

Mom

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