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Dear Caila, Nobody told me that being a mother meant worrying all the time but that is literally all I do and it is especially hard to stop worrying when you are away from me. There are times when you are with your dad, aunts, or grandparents when I allow myself to take a breath but now that you have started daycare, the worry is almost unbearable sometimes. I think a lot of it steams from the fact that I miss you. I miss us and all the specials days I got to spend with you over the last year. In two weeks, I will start residency and my time will no longer be mine. Of course we tried to set up my schedule so I can maximize time off with you but it will not be the same. Most weeks, I will only get one day off and it will be rare to see you on the other 6 nights since you go to bed at 7. I hope you will understand that this period of training is crucial to my career but I will always miss and worry about you when I am away. Today, when I dropped you off at

Dear Caila Bear How are you 1 year old already!?!?!? Haha. Time just flew by. I am currently on an advance internal medicine rotation so aunt Lilly is watching you most days. In the last two weeks, you have started to walk on your own. Unfortunately, you are now fighting all your naps. Thank goodness you still go to bed easily at night and sleep 12 hours straight! We have advanced your diet. You now drink 6oz whole milk 3x a day. You also have learned to poop on the toilet (for the most part). It’s such a delight watching you learn new things. Watching you makes me sad that I won’t have as much time with you next year but I am going to milk these last few months of MS4. We have 2 really fun trips planed in March and then I have to do one more hard rotation in April but if I match here, we will be staying close to all our family and friends. Anyways, you continue to surprise us every day with how clever you are. About a month ago, you figured out how to open the baby ga