Moving forward
I am a fourth year medical student. It’s kind of nice
because for the first time, patients and residents trust my judgment. Perhaps
it is because I exude more confidence or perhaps it’s because the interns are
not so far ahead of me. Or (I suspect
this is the main reason) I just don’t care. I don’t care what others think of
me. I don’t worry about not passing and thankfully there are no exams at the
end of my rotations for me to pass.
I started fourth year with a rotation on Safe and Healthy
Families. The doctors there diagnose and facilitate treatment for child abuse.
It was very interesting and one of the pediatric subspecialties I could really
see myself doing but I did have some trouble stomaching the extreme nature of
certain cases. If I were a CAP (Child Abuse Pediatrician) I would worry about
missing things and I am not sure I could live with the guilt of not catching
something major.
This last month. I worked as a Sub-I on general pediatrics.
It was hard. I worked from 5:30am every day to at least 6pm with call every
fourth night. I hated call nights because it meant I couldn’t see Caila for
30-35 hours. I got one day off a week and I scheduled it during a weekday so I
could give my sister-in-law a break from taking care of Caila. This meant I got
no weekends with Dave and that was hard too. I am not sure I would survive a
residency with such a schedule.
Now, I am doing a Care of Refugee rotation and it is very
nice. I only have to work 60hours in 4 weeks, which is good because I am
concurrently taking a Strategy class and I am doing a rotation with the
Occupational Medicine department here. The extra time has allowed me to finally
finish my ERAS application and submit it. I can’t believe in one short month, I
will be going on a bunch of interviews. Even though I still don’t know what I
will do with my life, I am excited to be moving forward.
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