Since I can't sleep (side effect of napping from 7-12pm) I decided to read some of my past posts and I realized I've been kind of depressed. Sorry about that. It's unbelievable to me how hard these past eight months have been! The rewards of science are few and far between and people who survive either feed off of small successes (in hopes of bigger ones of course) or they just have a more stable personality then I.
I've never thought about quitting anything more then I have thought about quitting this. Even today, I cried, laughed, made an advance in my project, and still don't feel very accomplished. I think I need to learn not to tie my self esteem to my job. The thing is, I don't have much else right now. My friends/family are busy and they have enough of their own problems to deal with so here I am depressing you every time I blog. In case you think I'm manically depressed, I have found avenues to destress: of late, I've been cooking A LOT. Here are some of my favorite recipes:
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/gingerbread-men/detail.aspx
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/scones-recipe/index.html
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/couscous-stuffed-peppers-with-basil-sauce-recipe/index.html
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/pancetta-and-parmesan-torte-recipe/reviews/index.html?pn=3
I find that cooking is rewarding because often times, the results are surprisingly good and even when they are subpar, I had fun trying. Lab is different, you often do a lot of the same things (aka Western blots) with varying results. There are cool moments though like learning a new surgical technique (aka carotid bleeds), or imaging cells so tiny that it blows your mind (aka platelets). Here are some platelet pictures:
I've never thought about quitting anything more then I have thought about quitting this. Even today, I cried, laughed, made an advance in my project, and still don't feel very accomplished. I think I need to learn not to tie my self esteem to my job. The thing is, I don't have much else right now. My friends/family are busy and they have enough of their own problems to deal with so here I am depressing you every time I blog. In case you think I'm manically depressed, I have found avenues to destress: of late, I've been cooking A LOT. Here are some of my favorite recipes:
http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/gingerbread-men/detail.aspx
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/alton-brown/scones-recipe/index.html
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/couscous-stuffed-peppers-with-basil-sauce-recipe/index.html
http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/pancetta-and-parmesan-torte-recipe/reviews/index.html?pn=3
I find that cooking is rewarding because often times, the results are surprisingly good and even when they are subpar, I had fun trying. Lab is different, you often do a lot of the same things (aka Western blots) with varying results. There are cool moments though like learning a new surgical technique (aka carotid bleeds), or imaging cells so tiny that it blows your mind (aka platelets). Here are some platelet pictures:
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